Karla's Chronicles

 Hello, there, my people, I have taken this week to focus on a writing contest sponsored by www.biopage.com. I will be uploading my essay to the BioPage website tomorrow. I will post about it on here as well. PLEASE GO AND READ IT!!  I have never won anything in my life, and I would absolutely love it if I were to win a writing contest! This might sound kind of weird, but winning something like that would really boost my confident and alleviate much of my doubt. Thank you so much in advance for your continuing support!!

 Hi, there, everyone.  Let me explain. I have been dealing with a particularly annoying depression episode this week, and I made the decision to take the week off from postings on this page, Monday not included. I should back on my regular schedule come Monday. I am going to be signing up for a writing project/contest on www.biopage.com and the essay will probably be posted here on my blog. It has to be linked to a website, and I figured that linking it here would be the wisest choice. I cannot lie, I am a little nervous about putting my writing out there because there are so many other tremendously talented writers out there. Things like this really put me into a challenging sort of mindset. I figure they are good for me because even if I don't win, (Which I am highly doubtful about) I still am giving myself the opportunity for others to take a peek at my work.  I am also giving other people a chance to judge me as well based on my writing, which is where the nervous par...

 Hello there to all of my blog readers, I want to start out this blog by apologizing for not making a post yesterday. It was one of those days where I just didn't have the motivation to do anything and to be truthful, was not feeling like myself at all. Depression is tricky like that. It will sneak up on you for no reason and make you feel sad and down. I am still sort of feeling off, but I thought I would come on here and say hello. To make up for missing yesterday, I am going to post on Friday.  Even though I don't feel that great, I still feel like I need to keep up with this project. I am not sure what the posts will look like, but we will just roll with it. I am the type of person who just likes to go with the flow and do what I want and wherever my mood takes me... so we shall see.

Happiness is something everyone wants. It's the singular emotion that everyone seems to chase in a circle, but they never can catch it. It's like playing a game of duck duck goose and never getting to the goose. It's elusive. The devil tells us this when we are spinning out of control with sadness and depression. It's something we see in others, but never imagine seeing in ourselves. You see, the depression scratches and claws in an attempt to completely destroy and ravage you. It comes in with that specific plan and agenda and doesn't leave until it is complete.  This leaves you confused and confined by sadness. After about a month or two, you tire of crying until your vision is blurred  You decide to make a change and seek help from a therapist for the sake of your mental health. You realize later that this was the best decision you could've made for yourself. After a few months of investing in yourself, you notice a complete change in your happiness levels. I...

 Ever feel like you are falling with no one there to catch you? Are you scared you may fall and never get back up to return to what you know? That can be a very harrowing and traumatic experience. It may be clinically known as a panic or an anxiety attack. They are relentless and have the ability to throw their victims over the edge and down into a deep hole, which we may clinically refer to as depression.  Certain people who are around you and have not experienced this are going to convince you to get over it and move on. Even though this may sound ugly, and even worse, insensitive, but remember they don't and will never understand. People, by simple nature, are selfish and often have a difficult time putting themselves in other's shoes. They only have the natural capacity to focus on what they have experienced or been through. Sometimes, they will attempt to relate by telling you that they have a relative or close friend going through the same or similar experience and they ...

 Happy Wednesday! I apologize for missing out on a post yesterday! To be honest, I didn't even really end up getting on my computer until the evening, and once I was on the computer, the writing was the last thing I felt like doing. As an independent writer, it seems like I am fighting a constant battle with motivation. I often have to talk to myself and convince myself that what I do is meaningful, even if my audience doesn't even read what I have to say. I am not naive and know that happens. However, for the sake of losing all hope, I write anyway. Fellow writers, please tell me I am not alone in this. There have been some periods in my life where I go months without typing a single word related to projects. When that happens, I argue with myself and say that I need to produce, but sometimes, my mind doesn't listen. During extensive breaks, I often wonder how and when I will ever gain the skill back. It is an everyday fight. Some of the population may see writing as a glo...

 I will be honest right from the beginning. I am not really in the mood to compose anything super deep or as some of my blogs suggest anything unusual. My creative side is still on vacation from the weekend! However, I am sitting here composing this because I realized I have been doing it for three months!! Pretty often, too. I can't lie every now and then, I would skip a day, but then to make up for it, I would make 2 posts in one day! I am not trying to sound arrogant or like I am full of myself, but I am proud of myself for keeping this blog together! When I first created the task, I thought that I wasn't actually going to be able to keep up and keep my word, but alas, I have! What is something you are proud of that you have accomplished and why are you proud? Please feel free to comment down below! I do like interactive blogs!

 It was like it occurred out of a dream She was so excited to go on vacation Because of the nation-wide lockdown She had been stuck in her room With nothing to do When her mom booked the airplane tickets She screamed as though she were thrilled This was going to be unlike any other Place she had been When the plane touched down It was directly on the beach She had never seen such a thing There were red sand crabs in every corner And the sand was of her favorite color A deep blue It was like her mom had read her mind She was dying to finally do something  With her time Now she could sit on the beach And come up with a whole new rhyme

 Life is a wondrous thing, no doubt, especially when you take the time to sit back and think about it. To exist is to be blessed to witness such a thing. It is amazing what our bodies will do to sustain life. We each have a unique journey to travel and we each have our own unique way of surviving life. Having said that, it is no secret that we live in a society that is overly sexualized and ultra-focused on the idea of including love in our lives. We see it on virtually every channel on our televisions. This causes others to feel insignificant if they are not involved in a relationship. I know this feeling all too well because I have spent many years of my life mulling over the fact that no one would ever love me. I felt like a failure for being a virgin and for not experiencing what my friends had done decades earlier than me. Not having been involved with anyone in the intimate sense made me feel like a loser and someone who no one could possibly want. As you can imagine, this to...

 Hey, you guys, I apologize for missing a day with my blogging yesterday. To be honest, it was a nasty and very gloomy day, and it was affecting my mood in a not-so-good way. Because I am wanting to keep up with my blog and writing 4x a week, I am going to post two blogs today! The good news is I am doing MUCH better today! It is an absolutely stunning day today. The sun is shining brightly in the sky. Am I the only one who feels totally inspired and livened by sunny weather? Seriously.. it makes me feel like I should get up and dance, and if I could, I totally would.  I am in the mood and have some creativity cooking so stay tuned!

 Hello, March. This year is just moving right along it seems! It seems like things may be getting a bit better soon. At least that is the hope for more vaccines coming out to reduce the fight with COVID. At this point, I will just be happy to go to a restaurant by June. That is pretty much all I want for my birthday anyway.  It's March. Cerebral Palsy awareness month. Having lived 37 years with it, I have learned to cope in my own unique ways. If you live a disabled life, you know it is really all about adaptation. It really is a slippery slope sometimes, but the hard times truly do increase your growth and make you stronger. You may not see it during your mental breakdown point, but I promise you things do get better. Life breaks us down to show us a new beginning. It sounds silly, but it is so true. You just have to take life second by second. It really helps to see life as a progressive road and to think that you hold the responsibility of keeping your own road map. You dic...