Karla's Chronicles

 hello, blog, it has been a while. i was tied up in my poetry collection and left my blog in the dust for a bit. i would like to make it a goal to become more active here. the last post i made was my letter to depression 9 months ago. tomorrow is thanksgiving day. it really is amazing how quickly time moves. for the most part, this has been a pretty good year. i have more to be thankful for than i do to complain about. so, that's a good thing. i feel like i have become a stronger person this year in terms of adapting to my chronic pain. it has not been easy at all, but slowly but surely, i am learning to cope. it has been a wld ride, but i have kept my seat belt on! in the spirit of thankfulness, i would like to say i really appreciate everyone who takes the time out of their days to check out my blog and my life updates. it means the world that your support is a mainstay. i feel like i have lost a lot in the past couple of years, so knowing that i have your support truly does mean

    Dear Depression,   I wake up in the morning feeling overtired and stiff as a board, and the day has barely begun. I touch my face, and I feel the wetness of the tears that have blurred my once perfect vision. There were so many thoughts swimming through my mind. So many in fact, that it is almost impossible to differentiate between fact and fiction. You have been making deals with the devil so often that I begin to believe exactly what he has fed into my already disease-ridden mind.   Every step I take towards normalcy and betterment is a hit to your heart. I know you do not want to see me even begin to become slightly better. You cannot survive without sucking every inch of air from my lungs. You cannot survive without the berating thoughts teeming through every pour and leaking from every vein. Your end goal is sick and twisted, yet I understand it with a perfect and keen eye.   You have ravaged me so completely and so deeply that I now can see your motive with clear eyes and